Happy Mother's Day

I'm sitting here sipping a delicious cup of coffee, a "Golden Girls" episode playing in the background, and stealing glances at my two beautiful creations. My kids are growing up so fast! I remember the days they were born like it was yesterday! I wish that I could go back to the beginning at times, I would have done some things different. Don't get me wrong...I have no regrets really, just miss the days when they were babies.
Today is beautiful....and I can't wait to get outside and play in my yard. Digging in the dirt is one of my favorite things to do. And today I shall do it in honor of my mother. She too loved to garden and such. I'm missing my mother today. I miss her every day but today just a little more.

Happy Mother's Day Mom! I love you and I miss you! I would give just about anything to have you here with me today (everyday!).

Happy Birthday Mom

Today is mom's birthday, and it just feels wrong. She should be here still. I should be stopping in to drop off a little something from the kids, and then tomorrow I should be taking her out to eat at her favorite restaurant...Red Lobster! So many other things should be happening right now. Not missing her.
We went to the cemetery this afternoon, to release balloons that said "Happy Birthday" and I placed three yellow long stem roses where her headstone will soon be.
Would so much rather it be placing a dozen roses in a vase on the center of her table in her apartment....but that will be no more.
I handled it well in front of the kids, even though a part of me screamed "it's not fair!" Anna was a little chatter box, I think trying to cover the tears that threatened to fall. And Dustin, my tenderhearted young man, broke down and cried. I am glad that we did this today. My children need to know that it is okay to miss her, to cry, and be mad if they need to. They need to feel comfortable in acknowledging these feelings and visiting her resting place. I need this, too. She may be gone physically and earthly, but she is forever in my heart.
I love you mom and I miss you so very much!